I’m in need of starting all over. Like…rebooting a computer. I hope I could go back to normal status or just get out of this hell. I don’t understand why bad things happen all at the same time-maybe just to make people feel fucked. The very first step in problem solving process is figuring out the knot (or knob. I guess you guys probably understand…..or not), but I dunno what’s wrong with me. The only thing I know is that I feel terribly uncomfortable, angry at myself, depressed and bad. Well…I will leave this question – WHY AM I FEELING SO DAMN BAD?- to you guys. Since I’m so nice and good, I will give ya hints. Just read the following post. Ok?
I feel lonely (not horney. Even though they rhyme…WTF?). It’s like..i’ve gotten so many problems inside, but i have nobody to express. Well…it seemed like I found one to understand me, but apparently I didn’t. That one is really different from me and i don’t really find anything common between us. In addition, one of my bestfriends I made in Brazil has just left. I used to love Brazil so much..but now, it got really worse. (Not that Brazil the country is bad, my life in Brazil sucks.) I need to be re-energized (I’m planning to go Korea or travel.)
And..I lost interest in everything. I used to love Biology that I just read the textbook for fun-pretty insane..huh? Not that I stopped loving Biology, I think I’m just in dilemma. I just wanna sleep and stay at home doing nothing. I’m getting lazy. Of course, my grades are going down. (Look at my GPA! Portguese and Redacao are ruining everything i’ve done!) Fuck ‘em!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well….Do I seem to have a mental disease? Yeah…i agree… 
WHATEVER…I WILL GET OVER..like 10 years later…
